Amnesia

I asked a friend today to breakdown my personality as to how they perceived me through interaction. It came back that I am inherently introverted.

At first I was shocked to hear this, but as I thought about it, I realized that this friend was right. While I’d like the world to think I am fun at parties, the truth is that I’d rather stay home and read a book or surf the Internet. Even when I bring my children to soccer games and school functions, I’m not the type to chit-chat with other parents.

I will dance like a fool once out, but getting me to leave is your biggest hurdle. It also has to be something that I really enjoy doing like going to a baseball game, an aquarium or zoo. I love watching the symphony and listening to live music as long as I’m not surrounded by pot smoking dead-heads.

I don’t know. It’s kinda sad if you ask me. Have I become so disenchanted with strangers that it limits my ability to have fun in a strange social situation? Am I afraid that I will be judged? That I will be found wanting as a person or a parent?

Ah, the joys of paranoid optimistic trying to have some semblance of a social life.

…at people who answer their business phones with a plain “hello.” A little panic button goes off immediately when that happens as if I ruined some little old crabby man’s day who couldn’t be bothered to answer his telephone because he was too busy watching Wheel of Fortune re-runs on the game show network.

Answer the damn line with something like; “Thanks for calling (Insert Business Name Here), (Insert your name here) speaking, how may I help you?”

Show the world you have some sense of cordial pleasantries or you’re not going to get my business. Yeah, town car service in Pennsylvania, I mean you.

…but reptiles?

If you’ve got two minutes, watch that video above. It’s very touching and I would think provides insight into the many things we still don’t know about the animals that roam this planet.

My video reaction to the conclusion of Dr. Horrible’s Sing-Along Blog is below. It does give a spoiler, so if you haven’t watched it, don’t watch this. If you have, you’ll get exactly what I was talking about.

EDIT: Finally found a plugin that actually works! You should be able to see the video now, instead of downloading it.

Anytime I leave the house for numerous hours at a time, my father decides he wants to save money by turning off the central air. Considering temps rose to about 95 today, you can imagine my surprise when I got home and my entire living space was effectively hotter than the surface of the sun.

I can understand he wants to save money here and there, but when I get too hot (Especially after driving to Boston, sitting through a 9 hour meeting and then driving home) I get just a wee bit cranky. Not to mention, it takes about 8 hours for central air to effectively drain the house of heat to cool it again, which I’m assuming probably wastes more money than leaving it on a stable temp.

I went from freezing to death at the company meeting, to withering on the proverbial vine.

I’d hug ya dad, but I’m too sweaty.

…That come with being a toddler.

Allyson’s first attempt at mini golf was fun had by all. She pretty much kicked my ass. Enjoy. Although, I must warn you that you will be hearing my horrible giggles and laughter. I sound like a f’in hyena.

and….

Leaving for a few days to the beach for a chick weekend with the girls and my aunts! I will be bringing my laptop, but I doubt there will be any access there, so don’t worry about me, I will be soaking up the rays and dancing in the surf. I will be liberally applying sunscreen as well.

I will take pics too for consumption upon my return.

Have a great weekend!

I am having one of those moments where I hate everything. I don’t want to write. I want to change my theme but I hate all the themes out there, so I just go back to placating myself with this one. Then I realize I love this theme and I’m trying to change something that I have control over. Changing the little things in my life never really soothed the burgeoning beast beneath this calm and collected exterior.

She’s hungry for many things in life and yet is afraid to make the changes where they may actually make a difference.

I have not been motivated to write here either. Oh, I have had plenty to say. I wanted to show you floating cities and share good news, but when I find myself starting to type, I just give up and do something else sometimes less productive. Some would call this a mild depression but as any therapist will explain, depression is anger turned inwards. I need to unload, unleash, unwind.

I need a kick in the ass. A big kick in the ass.

So instead of writing here, I play Age of Conan. I read Harry Dresden. I sit near my garden watching the pea pods lengthen and hope for ripened squash. I perch precariously upon ladders to check my gutters. I weed my perennials. I whack the shit out of grass growing between the concrete path to my front door and complain my legs hurt afterwards when I knew I was a dumb-ass for wearing shorts while doing such a treacherous act. I play with my children and break up their little playful squabbles. I watch them grow and realize how alone I sometimes feel.

I do not write.

I complain my comfortable life sucks all the while laying my head next to an empty pillow. I realize my problem.

I’ll be better soon.

I promise.

I would have wished you a happy fourth of July, but I was out with my son on a New England Aquarium whale watch! We took the sunset cruise and ran into a bunch of whales who happened to be practicing for the synchronized swimming event at the olympics.

As the sun set, we cruised back into Boston Harbor, saw fireworks, the USS Constitution and the Queen Mary 2. She’s a big lady and apparently one of the biggest cruise ships to sail! Here’s the link to the photo album and I’ll be posting a video below.

(and the rocket’s red glare, indeed)

Gnomes, bunnies and mice beware!